Losing cheerfulness.

Losing appetite.

Losing weight.

Feeling tired.

Feeling distracted.

Feeling numb.

Shaking.

Not strong enough to stand nor walk.

Not alright enough to even pretend to smile.

I don’t want this. 

I don’t want to cry on the phone when I’m feeling weak.

I don’t want to hear talks about nutrition and health.

I don’t want to remember anything.

And I certainly don’t want sympathy.

That, I hate with all my life.