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Trespass to land boleh saman kat mahkamah. Trespass to heart nak saman tang mana…?

22 May

Mak: Why so serious. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~?

Me: Dunno. Don’t feel like getting up mornings. Don’t feel like lompat2 macam tupai drunk on coffee. Don’t feel like messing with people or annoy the hell outta them. I just sit straight in class and muka pandang depan dengan tahap konsentrasi skala gaban nerd gilaaaaa tho it’s empty concentration. Blank.

Mak: Oh. So you don’t even kacau orang at all? O.o”

Me: Don’t even feel like talking.

Mak: Aiya how can you not talk to people. Tak boleh oo ini macam.

Me: Naah I do talk to people. Just….I don’t start the conversation. Well actually, I don’t even feel like smiling.

Mak :…….laaa. Awatnya cek? Marah ka? Sedih ka? Geram ka?

Me: No it’s not any of those. It’s because of… I don’t know – sebab perkara itu, hal itu, ketidakpastian itu, kegelisahan itu, ke-rasa-bersalah-an itu. It’s not like I’m throwing tantrums ke temper ke tarik muka masam ke apa. Tak tak. Just, uh…. how do I say it….. like, like something’s been taken away from me.

Mak: *quiet*

Me: *quiet*

Mak: You feel numb.

 

Oh.

Okay.

Oh.

Semangatku terbang.

Senyumku hilang.

Numb.

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